tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2183675361532946642011-11-03T05:01:40.711-07:00secondnoreply@blogger.comBlogger31100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-218367536153294664.post-53573739052725789452011-11-03T04:53:00.000-07:002011-11-03T04:53:15.708-07:00<div class="msg-body inner undoreset" style="color: #454545; font-family: Arial, 細明體, mingliu, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 1 !important; margin-bottom: 22px; margin-left: 29px; margin-right: 24px; margin-top: 25px; overflow-x: auto; overflow-y: hidden;"><div id="yiv1944826296"><div><div style="background-color: white; color: black; font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 18pt;"><div><span class="yiv1944826296Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;"><div>2011.10.21 （五）&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>看著電腦做一點點東西後</div><div>腦子就會出現聲音</div><div><br /></div><div>：「做這個有用嗎」</div><div>：「這個誰會喜歡」</div><div>：「可是這是最後一段能做自己喜歡的創作的機會」</div><div>：「你真的有這麼喜歡創作嗎」</div><div>：「你現在當完兵了思考要和以前不一樣了吧」</div><div>：「有進步嗎」</div><div>：「這樣的作品代表你嗎」</div><div>：「能賣錢嗎」</div><div>：「你自己會想把畫自己這張畫掛在牆上嗎」</div><div>：「大家都工作的很穩定了」</div><div>：「或許我現在這樣以後可以不只作死工作啊」</div><div>：「可能還有機會做什麼不一樣的作品」</div><div>：「你是不是失去競爭力了」</div><div>：「以前這樣大家都會喜歡」</div><div>：「你自己想要 什麼」</div><div>：「我都只想著能討好大家就好了」</div><div>：「其實我只是怕大家不喜歡我而已」</div><div>：「想被喜歡但不要太喜歡那樣」</div><div><br /></div><div>什麼都沒做出來</div><div>該替自己替些進度</div><div>不然每天都在空轉</div><div><br /></div></span></div></div></div></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/218367536153294664-5357373905272578945?l=afrozensecond.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>secondnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-218367536153294664.post-74299299605325269772011-11-03T04:51:00.001-07:002011-11-03T04:51:52.143-07:00<div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;">2011.11.01 （一）</div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;">很像很容易陷入覺得麻木的時後</div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;">不知道是不是一種保護機制</div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;">但也喜歡以前敏感卻不失控的時候</div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;">再努力看看寫字和畫圖</div><div id="yui_3_2_0_1_1320321009020161" style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;">好容易過於理智或過於感情用事</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/218367536153294664-7429929960532526977?l=afrozensecond.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>secondnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-218367536153294664.post-53340521418351853452011-11-03T04:48:00.001-07:002011-11-03T04:49:46.843-07:00<div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;">2011.11.03 （四）</span></div><div id="yui_3_2_0_1_132032091958677" style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;">說不上什麼</span></div><div id="yui_3_2_0_1_1320320919586114" style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;">說的都不夠準確</span></div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;">失去語言失去形容</span></div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;">鄭醫師多給了一顆白天吃</span></div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;">減少緊張的藥</span></div><div style="font-family: 新細明體, pmingliu, serif; font-size: 24px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="yiv1303474745Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 24px;">有一些感覺正在離開</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/218367536153294664-5334052141835185345?l=afrozensecond.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>secondnoreply@blogger.com0